LOVE HURT BLOOD

This is the tale of a young lass who  used to say  “Pity me , good people , all alone in the world “ . She was a meek , sober, open-minded , apologetic ,full of wit and victim of  issueless nostalgia. At first she used to depict herself as conservative and reserved as nun but later she appeared to be somewhat beyond writer's consideration . However whatever she appeared at the end of tale is of great vintage. Author  accepts that she totally had baffled him as she proved herself as the most selfish and self-seeker girl of the universe .

It was the month of April and both were standing under the  pleasant and cool shadow of love tree .Then suddenly Hadi said hesitantly , “ What have you considered about my proposal ? Sharmeen, are you willing to become my better half in future and bestow me with the chance to shower my love to you forever as I am already showering on you from the last six months”. Sharmeen replied after a while , “Look Hadi ! I know you have pure and sacred feelings for me but think  a little bit about my plight . You know very well I have no mother , she got divorced from my father after few years of my birth and my father paid no attention  to me as good as he should rather indulged in other woman .He left me all alone with my Uncle and Aunt who brought me up just like their own daughter and intend to marry me with their own son , I mean Zameer my cousin who works in abroad in an engineering firm who had already announced in the family that he will marry with Sharmeen .Hadi ! My Uncle , Aunt , cousins , Zameer and other relatives are of the view that my uncle must keep the blessing of his brother’s home into his own house forever”. “ So what?  You should have considered it before chatting  with me day and night” , Hadi replied angrily . Sharmeen shocked at seeing  Hadi’s changed  tone and facial expression and said , “ Hadi ! Don’t get  angry , I  understand  your plight .Give me sometime to mull over all my domestic and family ties” . “How long it will take you to think about our future, Sharmeen?”. “ I don’t know ” .“ What’s wrong with you ? What do you mean I don’t know? You have just two days to think about and I need your reply after two days .If you wish to spend your life with me simply say ‘yes' and if not say ‘no’ and move on.”, said Hadi violently and went out of the college .

Sharmeen feared of his beloved’s cold statements and suggestions , called his cousin to pick her for home , cousin came and took her to home .Sharmeen changed her uniform , bathed, took lunch and went for short nap .Unfortunately she did not sleep a while as the grave  words of Hadi were echooing in her ears say ‘yes’ or ‘no' or move on  ,  ‘yes' or ‘no' or move on , ‘yes' or ‘no' or move on………………and being fed up of that echo she called to her bestfriend to seek advice about her matter . “ Mino !Good afternoon ,how are you ?” ,  said Sharmeen in a polite voice. “My soul I am quite well .What brings you call me ? Is everything O.K?” ,replied Mino “Nothing is alright , Mino” “What do you mean ,Sharmeen ?Say whatever you want to say explicitly”, Sharmeen sighs and said , “ Hadi , my classmate, about whom I told you two months ago and with whom I am chatting since the last six months has asked me to become his betterhalf or leave him for good and  I have just two days to respond her in ‘yes’ or ‘no’ “Oh my goodness ! Its not a matter of worry  and weeping .If you think he truly loves you then say ‘yes’  otherwise apologize him and  rid of his attitude” said Mino in a calm manner .Sharmeen “Mino you know all ins and outs of my life as you are my bossom friend please guide me in this grave situation .I am feeling helpless” ,said anguishly. “Listen you had told me a few months ago that your cousin had proposed you and you said her that you are agree for marriage with him. Now why are you ignoring his proposal and selecting your imported lover who leaves no one spare with his flirtation and you are going to become to a victim of his selfcreated affection for you  . “As far as I think you should reject his feelings and love and catch the emotions of your cousin, Zameer, and your Uncle and Aunty as they preferred you everywhere just like their own children” , said Mino wisely and maturely to her friend . Sharmeen got angry on her imported suggestive advice and said , “You know I want to get rid of my uncle’s family . It pinches me to live with them .You don’t know how hard it is for me to live those who made my mother divorced from my father without any solid reason .Then how could I bear them any more .Allah has given me a chance to break the cage of Uncle’s slavery for good” “Behold , period of  twenty years is not a short period , it’s a long standing period , and you were a child when your mother got divorced from you father and left you all aloof  with your father and did not bother you take along her and so far does not think about you . Sharmeen the love for what  you are victim  is an illusion and good for nothing . For you real love is from the side  of your Uncle and his family with whom  you are living for the last twenty years .And these can be beneficial for you not only for this world and the hereafter not your nominal lover Hadi” , Mino said vigorously . “ I have made up my mind and going to say ‘yes’ “ ,said Sharmeen angrily. “ What’s about Soz whom you also tried to entrap in your love-net .If he proposes you then what shall you do with him? . Whom shall you reject Soz or Hadi ? Soz has no bad habit of gambling and he is not junkie rather your Hadi is used to smoking and other drugs”  said Mino animatedly. Sharmeen encounters and said “Last night I asked Soz why did he totally ignored me four months ago .He said that he was near about to fall in love with me but suddenly warned me to keep him at  arms length. He said that if he had not warned her to avoid him then we would have been in a close love relation .I asked him what do you want now ,do we reunite or not .He said neither ‘yes’ nor ‘no’ which showed he was not willing to resume the relation”, said Sharmeen with a hidden pain.

“ If you had already made up your mind then why did you call me ?”asked Mino sadly . Sharmeen said, “ Sorry ,sorry Mino you are mistaken . I mean I only want to get rid of the family of my Uncle and Aunty whether he is Hadi or Soz it does not matter”  “You mean your main concern is to leave your Uncle’s family . Alas ! How could you ignore the kindness and love of your uncle  and aunty? How could you brush  aside  the actual and rare emotions of your cousin , Zameer? How could neglect the sympathy respect and politeness of your younger cousin sisters and brothers ? How could  you not come up by the expectations of you father and separated mother and Uncle ? How could you trample the esteem of your family and race ? How could you consider about Hadi’s love of months  and nullify all other long lasting love? How a girl could be so selfish in this age of tyranny and pangs?” , said Mino aggressively. “ Nothing is dear to me except my self-interest . I’ll leave no stone unturned to marry Hadi its my final verdict” , said Sharmeen .Mino said, “ Love is not something should be won by killing the feelings , emotions and expectations of your parents and dears rather be sacrificed for the sake of their love and their esteem. To sacrifice your love for others bliss is of as much vintage as you do great religious deeds to win Allah’s will for the sake of salvation in the hereafter. Sharmeen there is no sacred and pure love except the love of Allah and His Prophet ,the love of your parents and your brothers and sisters . All the other love are fake and pseudo and seem to be fake and flashy  for the time being . Within a fixed period charm ends and you have to repent on your verdict but then you will not get  anything except tears and sorrows , you will ultimately cry with the slogan , “The biggest of all tyrannies to self is to fall in love and to ignore the love of blood and hug the phony love”. Sharmeen said , “ Mino ! Don’t throw your so called philosophy of obedient girl , I am liberated and can marry wherever I wish after my own heart .So I implore you to aid me in this matter”. Mino did not reply. Sharmeen starts shedding crocodile tears and utters, “ As far as your concerns about Zoq are regarded I lied you , he didn’t ever purpose me .I used to hanker after him and he rejected me by saying that he can’t hurt those people who love me so much and he knew all about my ancestory from the very beginning” . Mino said , “ Hmm”  “And Hadi has assured me to fulfill all my demands and desires ,he ‘ll never leave me alone , he‘ll prefer me over each and everything of his life” Sharmeen said while sobbing. Mino being affected by Sharmeen’s nominal tears said, “Alright . I ‘ll abet you , Sharmeen”. Sharmeen at once calls Hadi and says that she is ready to  spend her life with him and within a few days she will ask her Uncle about him.

On the hot summer night Sharmeen went to her Uncle’s room and said, “ Uncle ! How much do you love me?” “What happened my soul? Have your cousins teased you for something?”, said Uncle coughingly. “ Not at all Uncle .All are very kind to me and love so much”, Sharmeen replied. “Then what’s the matter?” ,Uncle asked her in a sober manner. Sharmeen got puzzled because of her Uncle’s sober behaviour and tone and after a while she recollected and restored her confidence and energy and said, “Uncle ! I love a boy passionately  in my college and  he loves me also intensely ,his name is Hadi”. Being shocked of her vulgar statement Uncle said, “Love .Love.What do you mean by love?”. “I want to marry him Uncle”, Sharmeen said  without any fear. “ I can’t let you marry with anyone else except Zameer who also intend to marry you for the last five years and he is just waiting for  your end of degree .And if you have any feelings for your newly born lover then you would be better bury your feelings at once. Twenty years ago your mother had committed the same mistake and now you are going to commit the same mistake”, Uncle said in a didactic and harsh  manner . Sharmeen argued with her Uncle for four hours but her pleading bore no fruit even her Uncle warned her not to meet her lover again. Then Sharmeen rushes out of her  Uncle’s room and calls Hadi, “Hadi ! I talked about you with my Uncle” “Oh, really. What did he say? ”,asked Hadi cheerfully”. “They have rejected my love for you and yours for me . They also have warned me not to meet you  again anymore .And very soon he’ll make me marry  with Zameer ”while weeping Sharmeen said, “Hadi ! Hadi! Hadi ! I can’t live without .I can’t marry anyone except you”. “ My soul .My gem. My pearl. My world . You say you can’t live without me, I have no concept of life without you .I’ll vanish myself if I don’t ordain you”, said Hadi with a flood of tears. “We’ll rush towards court”,Sharmeen said with anger and sorrow . “Court. Court. Are you out of mind? How could you think about elopement?”, being baffled by Sharmeem’s statement Hadi said  . “You don’t love me .You are merely going to cheat me after sometime .You have no purity for me .I hate you Hadi .I hate you”, being disappointed of Hadi’s reply said Sharmeen while weeping bitterly. Hadi being impressed of her imported-tears uttered, “ You are totally wrong about my love. If your touchstone to judge my love is to go for court ,then I am ready. Be ready .We’ll set off for court in the mid of December” Sharmeen felt comfort on his response.

On the  dark cold winter night of December, midnight, Hadi called Sharmeen and said, “ My soul get up .Come out of your home .I ‘m waiting for you outside of your home at grocery shop . Please don’t forget to bring  necessary documents”. Sharmeen said , “ I am ready.I come within five minutes.Wait a while please , Hadi”. She  went  out of her home and sat behind Hadi on Honda-125  , trampling and demolishing the esteem of her Uncle , Aunty, relatives ,separated parents and  race without feeling any shame or vulgarity . While rushing out of her room she forgot to bolt her room , her Aunt arose up and saw her missing from her room  and went to her Uncle and informed that Sharmeen is missing from her room . Uncle felt giddy and fell down on the floor because he was a chronic patient of heart and could not bear the news of Sharmeen’s missing as he thought she would have been eloped with Hadi. Aunt began screaming other members of family came to uncle’s room , inquired about the whole happening , firstly they took Uncle to nearby hospital and after an hour he came to senses .All thanked to Allah , Who bestowed Uncle with new life , then Uncle’s son Ubaid , younger brother of Zameer , began to search for Sharmeen .

Ubaid called to Zameer and informed him about Sharmeen’s elopement and Zameer became numb after hearing the news and he disconnected the call because he had never imagined that Sharmeen could cheat them not even in dream .But Zameer had to swallow the bitter pill of deception given  by Sharmeen and she became the sign of ignominy for the whole family. Ubaid called again, “What’ll I do now ? ‘ll I report police?”, said Ubaid to Zameer . After taking a long  breath Zameer said , “ No need to do anything for her recovery and return .Let her go to hell. What’s done is done. Take care of Mama and Papa .Never let them feel any stress for Sharmeen’s heinous act .She was born to do so”. “ How’ll we leave her without penalizing  .She has given us ignominy and humiliation .She did not consider about the extraordinary  services of Papa. She has left us good for nothing. I’ll shoot her .She did not care of our Papa and Mama who used to prefer her over us , who never discriminated her from us. They are full of agony  now because of the reward she has given them. Let me search her and her lover and kill them”,violently said Ubaid. Zameer said, “No.No.No………..You’ll never think of any such thing. She betrayed to all of us and betrayal ‘ll be her punishment .Esteem and love are not the things you should beg for or ordain forcibly. Ask Mama and  Papa to forget her and never let her enter the home throughout their life as there is no place of certified cheaters and ungrateful people in our heart and home.  Now whatever I have said act upon”

Sharmeen and Hadi spent  night in the house of Hadi’s friend .Next day at ten o’clock both  reached court with the help of Hadi’s friend and fulfilled all official requirements of court-marriage and finally they  got married. Hadi took her to his home but his parents did not let them enter and stay at home .Hadi’s mom said, “ Are you out of your senses ?How could  you marry her despite knowing that we have already matched you with your aunt’s daughter! Return her at once from wherever you have taken  her” Hadi said, “ I can’t leave her now she is my better-half now and my esteem and also yours”. “Esteem my foot. Just throw her outside of our home otherweise get off along with her away from our life and you have no more  relation with us” , said Hadi’s mother angrily. Hadi took her and took a home on rent and started their new life. For the first five months newly wedded couple had days and nights  equal to Eid as they had money for more than six months .Its a bitter fact that ‘when money ends everything ends’ , likewise Sharmeen’s love for Hadi also downed with the passage of time. Hadi tried for different jobs but remained unsuccessful. At last Hadi’s parents approached him and convinced him to divorce Sharmeen and after torturing her from all ends, he divorced her and pushed her out in the cold world. Being failed in love and broken-hearted she reached a women recovery center and met with a lady named, Sis,and told her what she had suffered and what she had lost because of her sole mistake of crossing the threshold of her Uncle . After listening Sharmeen she said , “ It was all your fault .You proved yourself ungrateful , you wronged with your Uncle and his family .And now you deserve to be devastated and humiliated .If you had not  crossed the threshold of your Uncle’s home then your plight would have been different .You killed the rare feelings and emotions of Zameer and also killed him inwardly too by preferring Hadi over their twenty years love. Obedient women are devaluated because of the girls like you who become extreme sort of selfish and do not care about the reverence , love , rights of parents and disappoint them badly  ”. Sharmeen began to weep bitterly and she used to pray day and night for her forgiveness from Allah and his Uncle while asking for forgiveness she used to become unconscious and when she came to senses woman recovery center used to echo with her following words, “ Don’t love .Don’t love .Don’t love ……………. Never Fall in love women. Never cross the threshold of your parents’ home for the sake of illusionary love which is nothing but a kind of transient drug . Behold ! there is no actual love but the love of parents , the rest is all fake. Fake ! Fake ! Fake! As fake as life”.